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time for something new?

2012-01-10T17:40:00.000-08:00

A new year usually brings new goals, or resolutions, but my guess is that they are actually the same old ones wrapped with new intentions and new hopes for success. Perhaps the goals have new methodology behind them or are empowered with the new technology but they are just the same old dreams of last year.

This month I want to encourage us to think about the new. God exhorts us to put off the "old" and put on the "new". What is it in your life that is "old"--worry, anger, gossip, shame, doubt, fear...? How about starting this year by putting it off, throwing it aside and giving it to God (who, may I remind you, knows all about it and is in complete control).How about living today trusting that God is who He says He is and that He loves you as much as He says He does? If that one statement really were true, how would your life be different?

This year I want to live more of my life, to actually participate in each moment and not waste it on the "old". I want to have more "new" in me and flowing from me to those in my sphere of influence. I want to allow God to do something "new" in me, for me and through me!

How about you? Isn't it time for something new?!

Its Christmas!

2011-12-25T18:54:00.000-08:00

This time of year is known for its traditions--egg nog, singing Christmas carols, giving and receiving gifts, decorations, lots of sweets, big meals, family,...the list goes on and on. I am confident I have enjoyed most, if not all, of those traditions during this season, though I have tried to cut back on the volume in the sweets category! In the midst of all the traditions this season, I was thinking this morning that I need to be careful to pay special attention. It is too easy to miss the importance of what we are celebrating if we just "do" tradition.
This season I hope you will take time to see something new, or just to see the tradition in a new way, to appreciate what it is...actually WHO it is we celebrate. Whether you are singing, looking at lights, eating, spending time with family...whatever your traditions...take a moment (or more!) to consider the reason for those traditions. Most of all, be sure to celebrate the life God has given us through the gift of His Son, Jesus! May we respond to the Gift as the shepherds and wise men did--compelled to come closer, to tell others, and most importantly to respond with worship!
Merry Christmas! May His life be seen in our lives by those around us.

Take a Walk

2011-10-31T18:53:00.000-07:00

I took a walk this morning. It was a bit confusing to be honest. The calendar says October (yes, it is the END of October!) but the snow on the ground was screaming December. This visual helps as I practice for our church’s Christmas music, but the green grass poking through the snow that was covered by falling leaves was just a little odd this morning. God certainly likes to mix it up sometimes.

The walk was a great opportunity to review the past two weekends. God has been good indeed (as always!) as I looked into the Word together with the women of Hope Grace Brethren church last weekend, and then with Faith Baptist this past weekend. We studied God’s calling out to us to “come as you are” and our reluctance at times last weekend. Then, our study this weekend focused on our interactions with one another and “walkin’ with my sista’!”

One of the best things about traveling and speaking, to me, is watching God do His work. Communicating that which is living, pertinent and powerful, and then watching as God’s Spirit does His work is just incredible…no…more like awesome. (Those who know me know I don’t use that word for anything except God, and it definitely fits here!) To be sure, there is nothing better to me than teaching the Word.

The busy schedule will slow a bit now and the emphasis will shift now to more class work preparations, teaching online and of course our Wellspring Sunday school class prep. Along with that, November brings my favorite holiday…Thanksgiving! It is still a few weeks, but these past months have flown by and the holidays will be here much quicker than anticipated.

As you finish the last couple months of the year, be sure to take a walk now and then just to review what God has done in your life…and don’t forget to say “thank you” J

Time for a change

2011-10-16T17:38:00.000-07:00

Autumn has come and with it cooler temperatures, the diversity of color on the leaves, and a busy schedule. If I am honest I love the colors, but it is sad to say good bye to the heat. I enjoy warmth but it is time once again to pull out the sweaters, long-sleeved shirts and blankets.

October also means a busy schedule with teaching during the week, our Wellspring Sunday school class on Sunday mornings and traveling to speak most weekends. Last week I joined the women of Genoa Baptist Church in Columbus, OH as we talked about “How to Have a Healthy Heart”. It was a great time and was extra special because I spent the weekend with a former player! God is so gracious to allow us to see some of His continued work through the years.

This weekend I was blessed to have been with New Hope Baptist Church for their second annual Women’s Conference. Their theme, “The Fabrics of Our Lives” reminded all of us throughout the conference that God was “making” us. He was at work indeed as we asked the question, “What are you made of?” in the three sessions together. The stage and hallways were lined with quilts—each with a story, each made with care, each different and purposeful…just like each of us. God used His word in us to affirm, encourage, teach, and correct. One of the things I enjoy about speaking is watching God use His Word in the lives of those who will listen with intention. There is nothing better than being changed by God and allowing Him to use you to help others see Him clearer! I got word from the conference director that one of the women attending became a new creation this weekend. God saved her and she now has a relationship with Him through His Son, Jesus!!! Now THAT’S worth shouting about!

As the seasons change, take time to be intentional about life today. Live life to its fullest as God does His work of changing us into the image of His Son and as always be aware for the opportunities God will give you to make His name known in your sphere of influence.

Making a Difference

2011-06-14T13:20:00.000-07:00

I won’t try to hide it…I’m beat! J We’ve just finished the second weekend of the women’s conference here on campus. A total of about 940 women came to be encouraged and challenged in the Word through music, interaction, entertainment and speakers. It is always one of the hightlights of my year—seeing familiar faces, worshipping with all the women and being so encouraged by their own real walks of faith.

It was my privilege to give a workshop this year that centered on the topic of knowing God. It is such a broad topic but my workshop looked at it from the Apostle Paul’s perspective in his letter to the Philippians. I was reminded that this huge concept does indeed have practical implications for my daily living. Increasing in the knowledge of God increases my discernment in the choices I find myself making every day.

Knowing God is a learning process…with quite a curve at times. It happens in your reality (no matter what that reality is) by experience and includes a pursuit that begins with a perspective, involves sacrifice and work and…suffering. Paul made knowing God his greatest pursuit and I have been challenged to make it mine too.

So the next time we need to make a decision that seems oh so practical and daily, let’s take a moment and be sure that the choices are based on our pursuit of God. It really does make a difference.

Spring has come!

2011-05-16T18:50:00.000-07:00

Spring has finally come…I think. The winter weather has been here for many months and it seems that the spring rain wants to follow suit. Doing life these months has been a great reminder of what we talked about in my James class this spring at BBC. James begins and ends his letter with the encouragement to remain steadfast and endure despite what life may be handing you. The recipients would have read it with their trials, perhaps even persecution in mind. They would have also been thinking about the imminent return of their Savior, Jesus. As I’ve taught the Spirit has been slowly and steadily working to remind me that my mind and heart also need to be steadfast. This perspective shows in the way I handle daily life. No matter the circumstances, my spirit can rest and can persevere knowing that the One who loves me is indeed with me, and will never leave.

The spring has also brought speaking opportunities with the women at the Trinity Bible Church Ladies Tea in Glassboro, NJ as well as a weekend retreat with Blessed Hope ministries at the beautiful Letourneau Conference Center in Canandaigua, NY. I have met new friends and been refreshed by old ones in my travels. I’m so glad God gives us connections, aren’t you?!?!! In just a couple weeks the LYFE Women’s Conference will begin here on campus. During the first two weekends in June, over 950 women will come for encouragement, solid Bible teaching, fellowship and connection. If you haven’t come to LYFE, you should join us some time…how about this year?!

Spring brings the end of another school year, the end of the snow (let’s hope!) and many new beginnings. I hope as your seasons change you remain steadfast no matter your reality.

the daily-ness of life

2011-02-13T14:01:00.000-08:00

Ever notice that life just keeps going? goods, bads, uglies,...it just keeps on. Life here, as it has in so many other parts of the country has included snow, ice and cold temperatures. Word on the street is that the temps will rise this week...the sound of "50 degrees" is music to my ears and the slush that will result from the meltdown will be a welcomed sight though I'm sure the next thing for some people to complain about.

We've begun a study on prayer in our Wellspring Sunday Ladies Bible Study class and, as is to be expected, the time has been challenging to me already. We have a section of our class entitled, "Its a God-thing"--an opportunity for the ladies to share some of the answers to prayer they've seen during the past week. What fun to listen as the ladies share some of what God has done in, through and for them! The goal of this segment is to make us all more aware of God's working in our lives, as well as to perhaps make us more aware of our need to pray.

Life here has been pretty basic with teaching (some core Physical Education courses, but also a Bible elective in James), teaching preparation (sunday preps, current classes and a new grad school online course in Exercise and Nutrition), speaking preparation (spring will be here before we know it...can I get an AMEN?!! and the schedule will be much busier once that happens). I am also enjoying practicing for our church's Easter musical.

It seems there is always plenty to do, and the task at hand is to maintain a pliable heart in the every day busyness. Sometimes the winter dreary weather, and gray skies can seep its way into my soul. How important my daily time with God becomes. My spirit NEEDS to know He is there and that He is actively involved. I long for His bright touch in the midst of the gray of February. This happens as I talk and listen to Him in His Word and the time spent in prayer.

As the warmer weather comes and the drearyness of winter subsides, I hope your heart is holding on to His faithfulness and the truth of who He is. Keep your eyes and heart open to the Spirit's leading. He may have you be a bright spot in someone's life today. Live like crazy in the midst of your daily-ness!

What a day!

2010-10-30T16:45:00.001-07:00

…I woke up in Florida! There’s just something about warmth, sunshine and the beach that refreshes my soul. I am blessed to be able to spend 5 days with my parents who have graciously invited me and a friend to share some of their vacation time (and condo!) with them. It’s just a week or so after the mid-semester point, so the break is welcomed; and this year the Florida weekend came at the same time as the college’s “fall break”. We have been enjoying the warm weather, dolphin and pelican “shows” and shell hunting, but reality will strike when we return home to the NE PA seasonal temps.

I have been trying to be aware of what God has given me (big and small) recently and thought I’d take a couple minutes to share some of the blessings with you all.

This past weekend I enjoyed some “R&R” with the ladies who attended the conference at New Hope Baptist Church in Watertown, NY. We looked at Philippians 3-4. What a thrill to share the Word and watch God make connections as only He can do. There’s a new name in the Book of Life, as a young woman accepted Jesus’ gift of salvation!

Our Sunday ladies Bible study is doing a study of the concept of “inheritance” and I have been challenged to not only see myself as a co-heir with Jesus, but also to accept that which God has given me—which includes going and getting it sometimes.

The month of November will bring my favorite holiday and this year my sister and her family will be joining us so there will be added excitement. In the meantime, let’s determine to be thankful for all that God has given us in people, possessions and especially His presence. Don’t wait until the end of the month to say thanks, be aware of what God has blessed you with and let your heart overflow to the Giver, as well as those around you.

What a day!

Can you even believe it?

2010-10-02T12:27:00.001-07:00

Can you even believe its October of 2010 already?! Funny that one of the things I have been trying to do more of is “slow down” enough in my heart to pay more attention to what is actually happening around me, yet time seems to be moving faster with each tick of the clock.

Though this semester hasn’t taken me on the road quite as much God has provided several opportunities to interact with our students and the Word here on campus. Last weekend I enjoyed a great time with the ladies at the East Brandywine Baptist Church Ladies Retreat. We enjoyed beautiful weather, each other’s company and some great times in Galatians 5-6 looking at our “walk”.
This week on campus will be the annual Bible Conference. Our theme is the Psalms and I have the privilege of presenting a workshop on Psalm 16 and the topic of Embracing our Privilege. What a “beautiful inheritance” we have and I have been challenged recently to embrace all that God gives and even more importantly, all that He IS.

I hope the month of October is a beautiful one for you. The leaves are changing here in NE Pennsylvania and the hills are displaying God’s handiwork. May our lives do just that as we yield to His working in our lives and display His handiwork.

Can you even believe He is all that He says He is?!

What if...

2010-08-17T17:37:00.000-07:00

…I didn’t dwell on what I feel like I didn’t get?
…I paid attention to what I do have?
…today were the only day I was guaranteed to have?
…I believed life really was short?
…there really wasn’t a legitimate reason to complain?
…life wasn’t about me?
…I really believed God had everything under control?
…the Spirit had total control and access to my heart?
What if?

risky business

2010-07-26T19:21:00.000-07:00

I spent this past week with some former players for a time of reunion in the western Pennsylvania forest. There was much laughter, eating and just catching up. Thinking back through the week still puts a smile on my face! One of the girls is headed to Zambia for a year in early September and another (a Marine) will be deployed the same month. I really enjoy watching them continue to grow up and interact with one another (I always have!). There is just something about being with people you are comfortable with. When you have shared something, as these girls did on and off the basketball court, a bond is created that is not easily broken. Of course, the bond is not automatic. It is there because they allowed themselves to know and be known by one another. They risked relationship.

Allowing ourselves this high risk endeavor is the only way to know such a bond. Some would point out it also can lead to much hurt, and that is true, but God has created us for relationship and the emptiness present because of this vacancy is much worse in the long run than the hurt caused by other hurting people.

Relationships are tricky business. A favorite quote of mine comes from a very sophisticated movie, “The Muppets Take Manhattan” (all right, so its not so sophisticated!) The manager of the diner (the rat) says, “peoples is peoples.” I know, I know, maybe not the most profoundly intelligent statement you will ever hear but all too true. Humans will do what is in them. We are selfish, prideful and arrogant by lot and if someone else doesn’t seem to meet our expectations or needs, we have ways of dealing with them and when we are on the receiving end of those dealings…hurt. Too many times it becomes a cycle—hurt people, hurt people.

But God designed us for relationship. Is He intentionally setting us up? I say yes, but not for our hurt. God is trying to help us see Him! When people make choices that hurt others, He will use that as an opportunity to show Himself to be all that He has said He is. Unfortunately too many times we find ourselves nursing our wounds and shrinking back instead of looking for God to be…God.

The truth is, hurt hurts! My challenge is not to ignore the hurt, or validate the wrong, but to allow God to work in US using it to help us see Him rather than keeping our focus on what the other person deserves.

How about it? How about looking at the “peoples” around you and allowing God to work in His way and His time so that you might see Him? Let’s keep our eyes open for opportunities to risk in relationship this week, and watch what God will do in and through us.

Turning Up the Heat

2010-07-11T13:16:00.000-07:00

I don’t know about you, but I really enjoy the hotter temperatures of summer. Living in northeast PA doesn’t always allow me to experience them, but this summer we are actually having a week of temps in the 90’s! Overall, I have thoroughly enjoyed it.

Turning up the heat in life is not always associated with enjoyment, but these past few months that’s exactly what I believe God is doing in me. It’s not that anything new has come on the scene, but rather just a better focus about some current circumstances. These are times when it’s really good to focus on what is going on in yourself, rather than with everyone else around you; easier said than done. Yet in the midst of it God continues to reveal Himself in both small and large ways.

I was in Cleveland recently, meeting up with a former coaching friend who happened to be in town on other business. While there we visited the zoo. Some of the monkeys had their babies there in the exhibits with them. One in particular was a wonderful picture to me of God’s care and love for me. As we turned the corner to view one of the first exhibits, the mother and baby were both sleeping. For these creatures the normal sleeping habits were a bit different than our human ones. Both were in the limb of a tree (that in itself is different!), and the baby was held closely by the mother (sleeping with baby…not recommended for the human species ) The baby lay safely snuggled next to its mother, sleeping without any thought of danger or disruption from its rest. The mother too was asleep holding her young closely knowing she had it firm in her grasp and there was no cause for concern.

This is a great illustration to me of God’s role and desire for me In the midst of changing circumstances or times of upheaval in life. God has me firmly in His grasp. There is no reason for me to “stay awake”, or be concerned for possible dangers. He knows what those dangers are and will protect me from harm when that time comes. It is when I begin to squirm and become restless rather than settled in His arms that I become uncomfortable and am not allowing Him to do what He is wanting. His role is to protect me and provide, my role is to yield to that work and remain settled in His arms.

I think the bigger issue is that we don’t always trust God because He doesn’t measure up to our expectations, or the “good” talked about in Romans doesn’t always feel good. So the biggest issue is the trust factor. But it is a big issue because it is coupled with my desire for my own way. I don’t trust because I can’t be sure God will do what I like, or give me what I want, or come through when I need Him. The truth is, He can’t do anything else! We don’t trust because we have been let down or disappointed…at least that’s how we qualify it in our own minds. The reality is, God can’t be anything else than “God”. The real problem is my heart…all that squirming isn’t necessary. I really need to snuggle in close to Him and let Him do what He does best.

If this is hard stuff for you, I encourage you to learn more about the God you are so quick to question. He wants you to know Him. He longs for you to see Him as He truly is, and He delights in His children. We’ve got to get the right focus if we’re going to endure the heat of summer.

Hold on...here we go.

2010-06-09T19:38:00.000-07:00

“Hold on, here we go.” I can remember hearing my dad say that to me as the ride at the amusement park began to move forward. It was a signal, a reminder of sorts, that I needed to keep a firm grip on what was stable because my “world” was about to become very un-stable.

Have you ever felt that way in life? All seems to be going pretty well, maybe not great but still manageable, and then you can almost feel your world begin to shake and stir a bit. It’s at this point we should remind ourselves to “hold on”. And this past Sunday was just that kind of reminder for me.

The LYFE Women’s Conference had just finished its second weekend. Just like the first, it was a great time of encouragement, and nourishment as we watched God’s Spirit do His work in and through us. It was my privilege to share the Word in two sessions entitled, “Getting a Grip on Reality”. In those sessions we were reminded of some basic realities as well as basic worldview concepts that will help us live in the midst of our reality without losing our grip on truth. Sunday morning in our Wellspring bible study we looked at Psalm 57 and God continued to impress the importance of His truth’s dominance in my life. What a great reminder…what a necessary reminder for the week ahead.

David is in the midst of some “this-doesn’t-make-any-sense” circumstances. The will-be king is hiding in a cave to avoid being killed by the present king, Saul. In Psalm 57 he mentions two things about God twice—His steadfast love, and truth or faithfulness. God’s loyal, stable, steadfast love is a sure thing in the midst of unbelievable, disappointing, discouraging, or just plain weird circumstances (it is there during the good times too!). Knowing this is true allows David to respond with a steadfast heart. Along with this passage, one of the ladies mentioned the example of Jesus as explained by Peter (1 Peter 2:21-24) as He faced His accusers. Jesus left us an example to follow, and oh how I need to follow in those steps. If the One who never did anything to deserve even “a look” from those who accused Him can respond with no sin, no deceitful talk, no reviling, and no threats and can entrust Himself to “God who judges justly,” I too should follow His example and allow the God who’s always got my back, to care for me.

Today let’s truly live as though God has it all under control, no matter what our circumstances. Let’s live in light of His steadfast love and faithfulness by responding with a steadfast heart and intentionally praising God…maybe even out loud!

Hold on…here we go!

Be Real

2010-05-23T16:37:00.001-07:00

It’s the Sunday after the first weekend of LYFE Conference and my body is definitely feeling it, but my mind and heart are full! I’ve met new friends, as well as reconnected with old ones. I’ve had opportunities to teach the Word, to be encouraged by it, and most of all to stand back and watch God’s careful and purposeful knitting of all the details, topics, and events of the weekend together for His purposes and His glory.

This morning in our bible study we studied Psalm 8, and David’s praise to Yahweh—so appropriate for this weekend. Looking back I cannot help but recognize God’s work and to give praise and thanksgiving to our good God. Perhaps I’ll write my own song of praise tonight.
We talked about “getting a grip on reality” in the two main sessions; that means my “reality” will give plenty of opportunity to prove the truth of the Word these next couple weeks. I don’t know if life’s circumstances really do change, or if I am just more aware of what has just been studied…maybe a little bit of both. So these next few weeks, I’ll be trying to be especially aware that God is, that’s He’s got my back and that Jesus IS coming. With those truths in mind, my desire is to live life with an “above the sun” perspective even though it is hard, not fair, and totally out of my control.

How about joining me in this walk in “real life” this week? Walk with the belief that God is who He says and will do what He says He will do, no matter how you feel, knowing God promises to work it all for your good and His glory. Let’s not allow real life get the best of us. Live real this week…because our God is!

Its Official!

2010-05-12T19:22:00.000-07:00

The school year has finished, and the grading is done. As I hit the submit button for the last class’ grades I may have even let out an audible sigh! This semester has certainly gone by fast but the speed with which it passed certainly did not lessen the amount of work it contained.

This year has added reason for celebration because it brought the completion of the MA degree I have been working toward. This past Friday, May 7, 2010 I heard my name called and walked across the platform to receive a degree from our President. My heart pounded as I sat waiting. Prior to the ceremony, as the faculty prepared to march (as we always do at commencement), there was an added excitement for me. During commencement I thought about all that God had done in these past few years to bring me to this point, but more importantly, all that He had done IN me. I am tremendously blessed and so grateful. Getting a Master's degree was certainly special the first time several years ago, but this time I seemed to have a greater understanding of God's leading and working in the process. This time I could not help but respond with thanks to Him as I received the degree. He is indeed good and His grace is sufficient.

I am especially grateful tonight because a few friends met me for dinner to celebrate. Unbeknownst to me they had planned to meet at a favorite restaurant where we enjoyed good food, and most of all just good company and interaction. Have you ever stopped to think about the importance of deeper level conversation to your soul? There is something to be said for communication that is genuine, heart-felt, and God-centered. Our spirits crave to connect with God and good conversation is one way for “real fellowship” to happen.

I encourage you to connect with those you know on a deeper level. Take the opportunity to talk about what is most important in your life. If that is God, His son Jesus Christ and the Gospel, I promise you there will be a renewed awakening in your heart as well as those with whom you talk. Be real as you converse, and help those around you see the reality of the Gospel!

on the journey

2010-04-22T16:03:00.000-07:00

It is the end of the semester--grading, trying to finish with closure, wrapping everything up and looking forward to commencement. This year commencement will hold special meaning for me as I receive an MA in the midst of the festivities! I'm grateful for all God has done. That degree will mean much more to me than a piece of paper with my name and some captial letters. It will represent hours of grace and strength. It will represent God's working in me and changing me as I've learned more about His Word and interacted with my classmates.
I was reminded recently that life is a journey; though it has accomplishments along the way and celebrations of completion our life's journey continues on. I intend to celebrate in 2 weeks, but more importantly I will continue to walk ahead. This accomplishment will indeed be noticed, but in the midst of it I don't want to miss the big picture. I don't want to miss the journey.
So keep your eyes open as you travel. You are on a journey, and you never know the sights you may see.

Life's a Beach

2010-03-17T06:47:00.000-07:00

I’m not sure exactly what that means, but life at the beach is definitely one of my favorites. I am spending my spring break here at the beach and can certainly attest its much nicer writing papers and grading with an ocean view!
I will clarify by saying it is still cool here. It is not take your chair to the beach and soak up the sun weather, but none the less, I am at the beach. While walking along the beach the other day I came up to a family who had indeed brought out their chairs and were determined to enjoy the beach life for the day. I was passing them in my sweat pants and hooded sweatshirt (which I happened to have over my head to keep my ears from getting cold). As I got closer I watched as two little girls in their swimsuits and swimming masks approached the water’s edge with great confidence. They kept up the pace as they entered the water and got about knee deep before making a swift “about face” and walked just as quickly and with as much confidence out of the water. As they made their exit I heard one of them say, “I think I’ve had enough for today.” I had to chuckle out loud. They had just gotten in the water, but had had their fill.
It made me think. I wonder if that’s how many of us treat much of our Christian life—bible study, church, prayer, relationships... We barely get started but sense a little discomfort (or maybe more than a little) and decide, “I think I’ve had enough for today,” as we turn our attention elsewhere. Life is certainly not always comfortable, or understandable, but to be sure our loving Father is waiting, even wooing us to walk with Him in all of it as He teaches us about Himself. He wants us to see Him as greater than the struggle and capable of getting us through. He wants us to connect in our spirits with His to wait, and listen, and to endure what life will bring our way each day.
I get to live the beach life for a few more days, but...I don’t think I’ll ever have enough.

true love

2010-02-18T19:04:00.000-08:00

Now before anyone gets too excited give me a minute to explain. This past Sunday we studied one of the "have-to-have's" of faith--a firm belief that God loves completely and is looking out for my good. My response to this "true love" is my life's daily-ness (and yes I know that's not a word!). My living every day, my reactions, and interactions all should be based on the Gospel...the good news of Jesus and His love for me. Go figure this week in my 1 Peter class the topic was also "true love" (its incredible how God weaves life together!). The first chapter is Peter's reminder of the salvation his readers possessed and how that should make a difference in their lives' purpose as well as interactions. To help illustrate I used a video clip from the classic movie "Princess Bride". Definitely not known for its theologically deep story line, but none the less this clip has great application for our lives as we think of our "true love".
For those of you unfamiliar with the movie, Buttercup and her true love Wesley have been on the run from the "will be king" Humperdink. He wishes to marry Buttercup but to do this must get rid of Wesley. After being chased into the fire swamp (a fate no one has survived) the couple emerges on the other side only to be apprehended by Humperdink's men. So that Wesley will not be killed, Buttercup agrees to marry the prince if he will release Wesley (she knows Wesley will return to rescue her). Humperdink agrees, but of course does not follow through and instead sends Wesley to the dungeon for torture. While she is held in the castle awaiting her rescue, Buttercup has nightmares about her decision. This clip is the nightmare. She is haunted by her decision to give up "true love".

My "True Love" lives! And I will not marry another. May my life's reality show that as I walk by faith.

living my reality

2010-02-10T19:06:00.000-08:00

The snow came as predicted today. That is amazing considering the past 2 storms have ended as empty threats for this area. This year it seems we are too far NORTH for the snow. Funny. Though my parents, who live in South Jersey aren’t laughing. 
I am continuing on my pursuit to answer the question, “what does faith look like?” We’ve been answering it in our Bible study time on Sunday mornings and this week we looked at Hebrews 11:6; particularly the part of the verse that says, “He who would draw near to God must believe that He is…” So, to have faith I must believe that God exists. Ok, I know, “captain obvious” strikes again! But stop and think about it. Is this truly how we live our lives? Wendy Horger Alsup, in her book, Practical Theology for Women, comments that many of us are much more convinced of the reality of our problems than we are of the reality of our God. I don’t know about you, but that hit me pretty hard. (By the way, I highly recommend the book!)
Chapter 11 of Hebrews begins with the author’s definition of faith and then 4 examples of those who were commended for having faith. The “people of old,” are the first group. They simply believed God each day. When God explained who He was to Moses in Exodus, He called Himself the “I AM.” (Ex 3:14). Go is does not need help, or support. He does not get life from any other source. He Himself is the source of all life. He exists. He is real!
Today, faith looked like doing homework, grading, shoveling snow, even a little nap…just basic everyday stuff. But in the midst of it, I have to remember, God is real. He is not a myth, or thought, or philosophical idea that may or may not be true. If I say I want to know God, and draw near to Him, I’ve got to believe…I’ve got live like…God is real.

Living the Reality

2010-01-10T15:34:00.000-08:00

It’s the 10th on the first month of 2010. Since 10 happens to be my favorite number I thought I would write a bit tonight; besides that it’s the eve of the start of a new semester and there’s no telling when I’ll get a chance to do this again! 
The theme I’ve chosen for this year is “LIVING THE REALITY”. I’ve been meditating on the whole concept of “faith” and I think that phrase really sums up what living by faith is all about. I started thinking about faith and its importance a few months ago when I read in Hebrews 11:6, “and without faith, it is impossible to please God.” If faith is really that important, we’d better figure it out. It seems to me that there are many people who are trying to please God without faith and their efforts are totally in vain.
Jesus also put much emphasis on faith when He walked this earth. He healed some because of their faith. He commended some because of their faith. He rebuked and showed disappointment to some who had little faith. One man in particular, was pointed out as having more faith than Jesus had seen in all Israel.
When you think about it, it really is pretty basic to this thing we call the Christian life. But the most important aspect of faith, (hold on, this is going to be profound!)…is doing it. I guess it’s similar to exercise. Because I teach Physical Education I have been asked many times what the best abdominal exercise is. Well, the answer really is pretty basic…it’s the one you do. No sarcasm there, just straight up honesty. And with faith perhaps there are times when we need to stop just talking about it or reading about it and start doing it. We need to choose to live in the reality that God is who He says He is, and will do what He says He will do despite how I feel at any given moment.
Let’s face it, life doesn’t look much like what we really want sometimes—its not comfortable or easy—but that really means MY perspective is off, not God’s. Why do I work so hard to try and make life comfortable or control things that never were, nor ever will be my responsibility? Things like relationships, where I work, financial provision, daily needs, who I can serve when and where, aren’t for me to control. They are God’s work and He is orchestrating all things for my good and His glory.
So this week, whatever our weeks may hold, let’s live in the reality. Let’s walk in faith. For starters this week I’m choosing to believe God loves me purely and completely. Live that reality!

world peace and computers

2009-12-29T21:10:00.000-08:00

I started this morning off reading and thinking about “peace.” You gotta love God’s sense of humor sometimes. I’ve been thinking about the birth of Jesus and how it is consistent with His life all the way to the end. For instance, have you ever thought about the fact that Jesus’ name given in Matthew 1 is “Emmanuel”—God with us. Then at the end of His time here on earth Matthew records some of His final words to His disciples. They include, “Lo, I am with you always…” Isn’t that great?! Jesus God in human flesh who came and walked among sinful man, His own creation, then promised to never leave. THAT is a definite source of encouragement to me when I think life is too hard sometimes. Jesus came, because of love, and remains, because of love. I am not alone.

You’re probably wondering where “peace” comes in. Well, this week, I’ve been thinking about the proclamation of the angels to the shepherds, “Glory to God in the highest and on earth peace among men with whom God is pleased.” Perhaps I’ll write some thoughts on the first part some other time, but today was a continuation on my “peace processing”. There are several other places in the NT where peace is talked about being given (John 14:27 and Phil 4:7 for example). This morning my thoughts went something like this:
Jesus brought peace. The angels proclaimed it the night of His birth as they announced to the shepherds; yet it is not automatic. The peace is in Christ Jesus. Peace is not an invisible force field that protects me from all that is happening—making me oblivious or insensitive or untouchable. Peace is a state of heart and mind found when my yieldedness allows me to see beyond the clamoring of requirements and appointments and demands and “have-to’s” and allows me to see Jesu;s to know I am loved without strings attached and then to love others the same way—actually to allow Him to love others through me. I want peace. I think mostly, I want Jesus.

That’s how my morning started. For some reason this week I have been feeling stressed. I have no reason really. I think its hormonal actually, but for whatever reason, things seem to be landing on my “buttons” quicker than usual.  Well, late this afternoon I had an opportunity to meditate on the word “peace” as I talked with and sat on hold with a computer company for close to 3 ½ hours (I really don’t know how long it was it seemed like most of my day though!). I’m sure some of you can relate.

I recently purchased a small laptop and needed to upgrade my operating system. This should have been a simple process…ok, I’m not THAT ignorant, but surely it did not need to take that long. The first download would not complete, I know this because a pop-up box—that I could not close!—appeared on my screen approximately every 15 seconds to tell me. Even when I opened a different window the box would reappear with its “gentle” reminder. So, I did the logical thing…called for tech support. I won’t bore you with all the details, but needless to say it would make great comedy material…now. I should have known it wouldn’t be good when I’m speaking with a technician, whom I know was sitting in his cubicle in an office somewhere in Asia, and the hold music (when there was hold music) was definitely not English…it was Latino.

Do you have something (or someone) that could be considered a “button”? For me, it is definitely computers. I don’t know why…no, I think I do know why. I really don’t like being so ignorant and helpless. It seems like each time I try to do something with any technical bent to it, I end up needing to ask for help and it seems so simple in the end. Argh! The pop-up box was screaming at me, “you are sooo stupid! How hard can this be? Just follow the directions and click on the appropriate box.” My inadequacy is flashing with neon lights. So,…what about that “peace”?

Here I sat with my computer on my lap, talking with someone thousands of miles away who seemingly would supply the answer to my needs, and tension mounting by the minute. While I was trying to interpret what was being said (or played on hold) God was right here…with me…offering peace. It is not the resolution of life’s circumstances that equal peace. It is not how well I do, or how much I know. It is WHO I know and the difference His presence makes in my life. I learned a little about computers today, but more importantly God reminded me about His peace today.

I want peace. I think mostly,…I want Jesus.

Its the music!

2009-12-13T19:47:00.000-08:00

THAT's what makes this time of year so good! We've just finished our final program for this year's COS. Gotta admit,...its been a little tiring at times, but hey...most things that are worthwhile are. It's also been invigorating! What a great reminder of what's really important.
This week will be filled with exams and grading just trying to finish the semester. I am also hoping to do a little shopping. All this singing has kept me out of the stores...probably a good thing! :)
I think this next week will be a reflective time as the year comes to a close. Being a closure person processing is important to me. It's good to think through what has been learned through the year and also to look ahead and think about what changes may need to be made. To be sure, God is at work, without this processing, chances are I'll miss it. If my heart's intention is truly to continue to deepen in my relationship with God, this processing is an important part of that growth.
The other thing I've been thinking about lately is the whole idea of "faith". What will it look like in my life this coming year?
Merry Christmas to you. May you truly see Him this season. And may others see Him in you.

it doesn't matter how old you are...

2009-12-09T19:06:00.000-08:00

...a snow day is a great thing! The weather here today was bad enough that the powers that be deemed it necessary to give us the day off. What a treat! I got up this morning and checked the website to find the announcement that school was indeed closed for the day. I had to read it twice! I felt like a little kid. Of course part of the day's activities included shoveling the snow and slush, then icing my back from shoveling the snow and slush. But it was great! One other thing I'll share tonight: while I was shoveling a clump of snow fell from one of the tree limbs and hit me on the head. I had to laugh out loud...God hit me with a snowball. hehe! :)
I hope your day has the joy of a snow day! Keep your eyes open. You never know what God might do!

today's best thing

2009-12-08T19:06:00.000-08:00

This week will be full of another one of the best things about Christmas...music! I have been working with the ensemble in my church on this year's Christmas musical since September. This week will be full of practice and then the 3 perfomances this weekend.
Music is so powerful, and when you couple it with the most powerful message...its a double whammy (does that have 2 "m's" or one?!)! The music of Christmas seems to communicate right from the start. It stays cooped up all year long and then spreads its wings once we let it out of the box. You hear it in stores, on the radio, in churches...its like life's background music this time of year.
So when you are listening to the music this time of year, remember that there actually is a reason to all the melody.
I hope your singing is an overflow of your heart!

What's the best thing about Christmas?

2009-12-07T18:36:00.000-08:00

I was asked that tonight. There really are so many “bests” this time of year. But tonight I will write about just one—maybe tomorrow we’ll do another.

The best thing about Christmas is the reason for the celebration in the first place. The story of Christmas—the angel coming to Mary, Jesus’ birth in stable, starry nights, angels, shepherds on the hillside… The whole story is perfectly orchestrated and timed. Jesus came at the “right” time, grew up and accomplished exactly what He came here to earth to do…to serve and to give His life as a ransom. Our Christmas musical this year has the song entitled, “We are the Reason” in it. Think about it. The Christmas season is a celebration of the birth of Jesus, and the reason He came in the first place was for you and me.

So tonight…the best thing about Christmas is knowing that I am truly loved. God’s love is unshakable, unchanging, and always secure. It is this love that allows me to truly love others—without a need for reciprocity. I hope you know that love too.

the most wonderful time...

2009-11-21T12:02:00.000-08:00

This is truly my favorite time of year. I have so much to be thankful for. Add to that the great food, family time, and of course...finding some super deals on black friday! In addition to the Thanksgiving holiday and break from classes this week God has blessed me in many other ways.
My recent trip to Moody--I had a great time speaking with the women in chapel for two days as well as with the RA's. While in Chicago I also got to spend some really good time with friends--oh so many restaurants, oh so little time! One night we spent the evening just eating and talking while drinking some wonderful coffee. You know, there are times in life when you can just sense what you are doing is a little gift from God. That's how I felt. I am thankful.
I've been thinking about faith lately. What a topic. I think I will be thinking about that one the rest of my life. It seems like an elusive subject, but certainly it should be anything but. Jesus Himself emphasized those who had it and those who didn't. Possessing faith and having it grow is one of the most important foundations for our "faith" (see what I mean?!). If that is indeed true, why do we approach it as an untouchable? Certainly there must be something more. I'm not saying it is so deep that we can't understand it, in reality, I'm saying just the opposite. Faith is so basic we miss it many times. Faith is simply living my life as though I truly believe God is who He says and will do what He says. It includes my choices, my words, my thoughts, and is not dependent on my circumstances. A life of faith is not oblivious to its circumstances but lives settled in the midst of them.
This time of year it is not unusual to hear "its the most wonderful time of the year..." in the background. I hope you take some time to be thankful in this season.

looking back and ahead

2009-11-04T18:28:00.000-08:00

Its been a little bit since my last post so I'll do a quick catch up. Two weeks ago was a heavy one. Two friends of mine had funerals for family members. As you may know, it is very sobering to think about death. Its interesting isn't it, that death makes us think about life. I desperately want my life to count for something, to communicate what is most important to those who are watching and to inspire others to do the same. When I'm done I want others to celebrate life...sure mine, but really I want them to celebrate the source of life in me...my Jesus! For all that to happen, I've got to live every day, one at a time, intentionally yielded and purposefully, allowing God to do HIS purpose in and through me.
On a completely different note, this past week I was able to spend a little time away with my parents who were vacationing in Florida. It was a welcomed refreshment and the weather was perfect...hot! Of course, being so warm for a few days has made it even colder here this week, but I have some good memories for sure. Among those memories will be the walks on the beach, watching the dolphins and just being.
The upcomig weeks will be spent trying to do more catching up, especially in the grading. I have to admit, grading is my least favorite thing about teaching. Its also time to begin looking ahead to next semester already...wow. Registration begins next week, this means textbook ordering,and syllabii revisions. These weeks before Thanksgiving will also provide a few speaking opportunities--a workshop at the Minister's Enrichment day hosted by Baptist Bible Seminary, and a couple days out at Moody Bible Institute. To add to the excitement of my time at Moody, I'll have a chance to reconnect with a couple friends who work out there.
In the meantime, there's much to be done. The first matter of business...is a good night's sleep.

a new view

2009-10-19T18:21:00.000-07:00

...that's what I have this week. Its like the lady with the big hair that was sitting in front of you during the meeting has moved and now you can actually see what's going on. I kind of have that sense now that my grad online course is done. Several people have asked, "so, what are you going to do with all your spare time?" Ha! I have to smile at that. This class wasn't just filling my spare time. But now that its done, I can begin to work on those things I've put on the "to do when the class is over" list. That includes things like--hanging an interior door in my basement, caulking windows, even making some banana bread, and other home "stuff"; grading, course prep, more grading, and other teaching "stuff"...I think you get the idea. We all have those lists. My problem has always been that I want them done all at once...but up to this point in my life that has not happened. Getting things done is just process, like everything else in life. So, I suppose its time to enjoy the view.
This past weekend was a wonderful time in Bellfonte, PA with a group of women at First Baptist. We had a great time talking about Courageous Faith! Then on the way home I was able to enjoy dinner with some friends. I am so thankful that God places people along our traveling paths. What a blessing to enjoy the company of people with whom we have built friendships. Sometimes He takes us to them, and other times He allows them to travel back to us. Either way its not necessarily a new view, but it is a comfortable and certainly an enjoyable one!
I hope you are able to see whatever is in your line of vision today as just what God wants you to see--whether its people, tasks or events--be a participant and enjoy the view.

this is it!

2009-10-11T19:07:00.001-07:00

I'm referring to this week. Its the final week of my online grad course. Whew. Just gonna do today, though, because if I look too far ahead I'll miss what needs to be cared for today. That's just me I suppose, but I don't want to get too excited about the end yet, gotta maintain you know, stay with the program and finish well. But in a way this really relates to life in general. My hope for the future should overwhelmingly (that's a strong word!) determine what I do now. It is my hope for my future that gives me perseverance, perspective and peace in my now.
Last week was a wonderful change of pace. We had our annual Bible Conference, which ended with the Alumni Celebrations on Friday and Homecoming on Saturday. My parents came to join me for the day. It was a very humbling and special privilege to be honored with an Alumni Outstanding Service award. There are certainly many who are more deserving than I, and it is hard to put into words the thoughts as I stood before those God has used to input into my life and bring me to this place to receive what I do not deserve. But for His grace in my life, only He knows where I would be.
Friday night we enjoyed the comedy of Michael Jr. I really enjoy laughing and it was great to sit and listen without concern if you should be listening or not. He was truly funny and we had a super time.
Saturday morning I drove to Mifflinburg and enjoyed a Ladies Conference with the women there at Calavary Baptist. God's grace was the topic and God's grace was evident as we learned together from Titus 2 and 3. I am thankful for their sweet spirits and encouragement.
That brings me to today. This morning our Wellspring class began looking at the 6th "What do you know" in our series. This week and next we will study Psalm 46 and look a little closer at the context of v. 10. God is present and His presence brings security for my unknowns.
This week, let's allow the truth of God's strong presence to permeate our reality...this is it!

midweek check

2009-09-30T18:43:00.000-07:00

well...how's the power going? If knowledge exudes itself (is that the right word there?!) in thankfulness, what am I thankful for? I'm glad you asked, here are a few things that come to mind:

fresh sheets, clean towels (that smell so nice!), a warm bed to climb into (though recently mine has been pretty cold--where did summer go?)
family
hope that rests in something and somone other than myself
the process of learning
little encouragements along the way
heartfelt hugs

...and the list certainly could go on, but for tonight I'll just leave it at that. Don't forget to use your power this week!

knowledge is power!

2009-09-27T19:13:00.000-07:00

This week...
-studying, reading, studying, an exam
-a Trustee dinner
-more reading and writing
-teaching
-speaking at the Heritage Ladies Retreat--and what a great time we had centered around the Word and a series entitled, Come As You Are. I spent Friday night and Saturday with a wonderful group of ladies as we thought through the concept of coming to God. Wow, there's so much to say, but one of the things I will remember are all the poses they came up with to communicate the idea of "come". It was inspiring.
-studying and preparing for the bible study class this morning
so...that was last week and this week started with the phrase, "knowledge is power". Ever heard it before? We are on week 4 of our series in our Wellspring Bible Study class entitled, "What do you know?" We are looking at some of the places in Scripture where God says, "know this..."
Psalm 100 is a "Psalm of Giving Thanks" and all centered on the knowledge that the LORD is God--He has made us and cares for us as our Shephard. That knowledge results in the power to respond to my circumstances with out loud, outpouring, and out in the open thanksgiving.
So, as we start the week...how about it? How about using the knowledge that the self-existant, covenant-keeping YAHWEH is God to help you respond with thanksgiving? We can start by just being intentionally thankful to God. What if God always treated us like we do children when they are given something--"What do you say?" Perhaps we have lost the art of being a grateful people, and perhaps it is because we have forgotten who it is that is REALLY in control.
I'm off to do more reading. Know this week that there is Someone in control and that He cares for you abundantly, no matter what your circumstances may seem to say about that. Know the LORD is God...and be thankful.

did you hear that?

2009-09-20T19:59:00.000-07:00

...it was me sighing :) I'm up late studying for my OT exam...oh so much to know...oh so little time. How is it I should be able to cram 2000 years of history information into my brain in just these 4 weeks?! Needless to say, I can't "talk" long tonight, my notes are calling me. But I did want to mention something that happened this week.
Have you ever had a related thought that was so clear, it must have been God's Spirit making a connection? Well, this week was one of those "connections" for me. We finished studying the prophets this week and I have been struck with their consistency in following God's directives and allowing Him to work His plan. In the midst of all the reading I recalled how as a coach and teacher I have intentionally put players and students in positions for learning purposes. That "move" is usually accompanied with the statement, "It will be good for you." Well, there I was working my way through the prophets when the thought crossed my mind,...actually more like pitched a tent and camped out...that God was saying to me in the midst of my circumstances, "it will be good for you." Can't help but smirk at that. God is intentionally working on my behalf; and its always going to be good for me. It certainly was a welcomed reminder.
The other light bulb for me this week was that what we are going through is not always about us. We are so tuned in to our own spirituality and growth process sometimes that it can almost be selfish. The prophets followed God's instructions no matter what, but many times it really wasn't about them and their personal spiritual growth; it was God's way of communicating to those around them. When times are hard, or good for that matter, it may not always be about me—sometimes it is for the benefit of those watching.
all right...back to those prophets.

here we are again

2009-09-13T19:15:00.001-07:00

...at the start of another week. Its Sunday night and before I head off to bed I can't help but look back over the past week with all its pressures and smile knowing that God has indeed been faithful to bring me to this point. My reading for my online class got done, though it was later than I usually like; my teaching prep and classes all happened (though the content changed in the middle of one of them!); we had a great time at Palisades Community Bible Church yesterday; our Wellspring bible study class went well today and ....here I am getting ready to get up and do it all again, should God give me another day.

The theme of God's timing has been "popping up" recently. All the reading I've been doing in the prophets certainly has had something to do with that. Then, listening to several women tell their story of God's grace in their lives and how He has brought them all together at their church was a great reminder of God's continual working...and His continued working.

So, this week as I begin and face whatever it is God has planned I want to be aware of His work and His time, and be intentionally yielded to it. I know He has my best and His glory in mind. Now I've just got to get that out of my head and anchored in my heart so that it overflows in my life.

We sang a song in church today that "gets me" everytime. I believe the title is, "Who May Ascend". The chorus says,
So do what You will,
do what You want
We have decided to trust You only
We want to be wherever You're wanting,
You are the Lord of our lives
Another section states,
Lord, not my will, but Your will, let this be my cry

No matter what is going on, I want that to be my heart's resolve. Its ok that its hard, God knows, He sees, and He is at work--in His way and His time.

I hope your week makes Him look good! Here we go again...

its Wednesday

2009-09-09T19:53:00.000-07:00

I'll admit it. This morning I was really feeling it...not the good "it", but the overwhelmed, so tired don't really want to think but will do what i have to do anyway, "it". Wednesday's are my longest day of the week with the way the classes are scheduled, and I affectionately refer to it as the "day from...God" :) Truly, I know God is faithful and will work His plan, but this morning as I was talking to Him, my heart was heavy and I was asking for some kind of encouragement.
My grad school course "Bible Overview" reading is in most of the prophets this week and I had already determined I would NOT be doing school work reading for my quiet time today. I needed something...I needed Him. I decided to turn to Isaiah 40 and 41. In His own wonderful way God's Spirit connected with mine to remind me (not rebuke me, mind you) of His strength. He is plenty big enough, and strong enough, and mindful enough, and loving enough to care for what He has orchestrated in my life right now.
Isaiah 41:10 is my Gram's favorite verse. She is 96 and you can't talk with her for 10 min without hearing her quote it to you. "Do not fear, for I am with you. Do not anxiously look about you for I am your God. I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." There isn't much more that needs to be said. I know He's there. And I'm so thankful for His grace that is so gracious in my weakness. I hope the verse was an encouragment to you too.

fresh breath

2009-09-06T19:03:00.001-07:00

Its Labor Day weekend--I remember when all that really meant was that you shouldn't wear white shoes anymore, the pool would close soon, there would be a cook out for dinner and school would start soon. Now--you can do fashion as you see fit, schools start before this weekend, I'm not too sure about the pools...but there are plenty of cookouts happening. I need to find one of those tomorrow.
Yesterday I was invited to a friend's lake house. In the midst of all the busy-ness and time crunching, I thought it would be a good idea to take some time to just be...and I'm so glad I did. It was a BEAUTIFUL day. I sat on the dock and did some homework (c'mon, I can't take the whole day away!) but spent most of the day just admiring the beauty and peace. We went out on the row boat (which had a distinct zig-zag pattern when it was my turn to row!)--a blue sky with some clouds, light breeze, friends, and to top it all off we saw an eagle soaring above. I'm so thankful for the fresh breath again in the midst of what seems close to overwhelming circumstances.
Today in our sunday school class we started a series: What do you know? We'll be looking at passages in the Bible where God says specifically that we are to know something in particular. Today we studied Deuteronomy 8, particularly verse 5. Our big idea for today was: When times are hard, God is at work. Again another reminder that what life looks like right now is all under my Father's control and serves purpose whether I understand it or not.
So, here I am on the verge of another week. I'm so thankful for the fresh breath and reminder for my soul that I am not forgotten and that all this does indeed have a point. Tomorrow morning, should God give me breath, I intend to use it for His intentions. Of course, now that I've said that all of life will be screaming at once, but this too is God's discipline (Deut 8) and building in me endurance (Heb 12:1-17). For now though, I think I'll get ready for bed and get some rest.
God is good...all the time. Breath deep.

daily life

2009-09-03T16:58:00.001-07:00

I wonder if Joshua ever felt overwhelmed. That's probably a silly question considering the tasks at hand and who he was working with. But sometimes its easy to forget the people we read in the Bible were real with everyday issues and the people they had to rub shoulders with had issues too. I'm sure Joshua had a few things on his plate to care for and I'm not so sure he had any spiritual secrets, he just did life daily.

I'm taking a grad class these next few weeks called "Bible Overview". This week we're studying, among other things, Joshua and Israel's beginnings in the promised land. I have to admit that the start of the new semester of teaching, and taking a class, along with the remodeling in the basement, prepping for speaking weekends coming up and the prep each week for sunday school has definitely begun to take a toll on my mind and emotions.
But like Joshua I am seeking to rely on God's presence and remain strong and courageous to just do what He calls me to do today, and leave tomorrow for another day's concerns. I am tired, but He has promised me the strength I will need to do what He asks of me...so with that in mind I'm trying to not waste that strength on other things--wrong thinking or emotions, worry, etc--and try and remain focused on what I have to do for today.

now where did I put that to-do list?

a traditionalist at heart

2009-08-25T18:45:00.000-07:00

Today marks the beginning of my 24th year here at Baptist Bible College. I won't take the time to rehearse all that's happened in those years, but tonight I just thought I'd write about the traditional CONVOCATION that we open the school year with.

As we lined up today I almost got a little teary just thanking God for His grace and so many blessings that brought me to BBC as well as kept me here. As I stood in line waiting to begin marching (which took a little longer than expected as the Provost tried to get the accompaniest's attention and let him know we were ready! ha!) I was overwhelmed with gratitude. God made me to teach, I know that, and that He's letting me do it again here at BBC is a good thing.

You may need to remind me I said all that as I begin my class schedule with a full day tomorrow. Wednesdays have a back-to-back-to-back (you get the idea) schedule. So hold on, here we go again...and no matter what I might say in the midst of the busy schedule and craziness...I'm so glad I get to do it again.

a breath of fresh air

2009-08-12T18:59:00.000-07:00

at this point, I would consider my summer "officially over". I've just returned from a week of vacation and now its time to finish the preparations for the new semester to begin. Classes will begin in less than 2 weeks, so I've got my work cut out for me.

I returned today from the last bit of summer and as I look back, its been a very busy one. I can't help but thank God for all the blessings He gives. He certainly is gracious. This month started with "Kingdom Bound" in Darien Lake, NY. FLN does a splendid job of hosting this event and has a little something for everyone. My topic was "satisfaction" and I gave 3 choices that David seems to have made as evidenced in his writing of Psalm 63. In and of itself this was a great opportunity, but God gave some wonderful grace gifts on top of it. He allowed me to bring 3 friends along to share the experience. We went to Niagara Falls Sunday night (I spoke Monday afternoon), and saw the fireworks over the falls. What an incredible sight!! All that water. And it just keeps coming; there is no decrease of diminishing of the amount...it just keeps coming. What a great picture of God's lovingkindness and grace. My friends and I were also able to enjoy the park as well as the rest of the scheduled events for that day and the next. This included concerts by Matthew West and Casting Crowns (which we watched from the open field on a clear night!)

After Kingdom Bound I had scheduled a week away to regroup a bit before the semester begins. God was so gracious yet again giving a week of beautiful weather to enjoy along with the company of Christie and her family. They were so kind to allow me to just "be" and join in with their daily life. I'm grateful to God for the refreshment He gives through people, and my friendship with Christie is mutually encouraging and refreshing. What a gift we have.

While away I read a new book...there's a surprise! I had originally taken one I have read before but try to read at least yearly, Humility, by CJ Maheney, but Christie had just gotten several new books so I picked up one of them and started to read. It is "Practical Theology for Women" by Wendy Horger Alsup. Now, there's nothing different that women need to do when learning theology. She doesn't treat the topic as though her readers are weaker. Alsup actually takes a hard-lined practical look at how our beliefs about God really don't match up with what we say we believe about Him. This really leaves us with only 2 options: 1. We don't know about Him, or 2. We choose not to live as though He is for real. The beginning of the book speaks to the matter of faith and what that really looks like and then she dives into some of the content--who God is. If you get a chance, its a good read.

Well, that's a small wrap up from an overflowing heart of gratitude. I feel as though God is giving me new air to breathe. And I want to be sure to take a deep breath.

the end is near :)

2009-08-02T04:47:00.000-07:00

I can hardly believe its August already. Besides being the best month of the year (I'm a little partial!) it means summer is officially coming closer to the end. These months have been so busy, the time seems to have gone by faster than it usually does. LYFE Conference, Basketball AAU tournaments, working in the office, work on the house, friends and family visits...there certainly was alot happening. Today I'll leave for Kingdom Bound! I have to admit, I'm excited and a little nervous. What a neat opportunity. They've asked me to come for a radio interview at 7:30 am and then to speak at 1:30. After that my friends and I get to enjoy some great music and,...even more important...each other :)

Take some time to enjoy what God has placed around you today. I don't want to come to the end of the summer and think to myself, "what in the world did I do these past few months?" I want to keep my eyes open and catch all that God has for me each and every day--sometimes I agree with it and like it, and sometimes I don't, but I'm trying to live more by faith these days than ever. If He is who He says He is, and will do what He says He will do (and I believe He is, and will!!) then I need to stop keeping Him in the little box I've made and allow Him to be my God.

Live like crazy today and find your true satisfaction in God alone. David wrote about it in Psalm 63...check it out!

ever thought...

2009-07-10T12:16:00.000-07:00

...about how much diversity God put on this earth when He created it? I was out running the other morning and noticed so many differences. Take for example the different bird calls. I didn't count but I'm sure there were more than I could have kept track of. That's just one example, but there is diversity all around us. Why is it, then, that we try so hard to either be like those around us, or try and make others like us? If God created diversity and what He created is purposerful--for His glory--why does it become so important that we are alike? When I coached I used to say, "the beauty of unity is diversity." What makes a group or team...or church...so impacting as a unit is when the differences come together and "fit", not when everyone becomes like each other. So take a little time today and appreciate God's creativity and diversity in His creation...and in His church.

making connections

2009-06-28T14:47:00.000-07:00

I think one of the most frustrating things to me is not being able to make connections. Having quality time with people that I sense want to know me, or truly care about my heart is super important and I really miss it when its absent. For some time though, I have struggled with another type of connection--intellectual truth with my heart. I'm realizing just how much this connection really comes down to yielding my will, and being completely submissive to God's sovereignty. Circumstances may not change but God is still sovereign...still unchanging...still, and completely in control and working all things for my good and His glory--His time and in His way.
Why is all that so easy to say and so difficult to connect sometimes? I am grateful for God's patience with me. Sometimes I can picture Him just watching and shaking His head saying, "Its ok. I've got it. I know what's going on. And I do love you." He is waiting for me to respond by saying, just as Jesus did, "not my will, Father, not my will. I want Yours here, not mine. Please help me. I want more of You, not more of me."
We've been studying some of what God has said about Himself in the book of Isaiah with Dr James MacDonald's book, "Gripped by the Greatness of God" in our Wellspring class on Sundays. So far, we've looked at His holiness, awesome-ness, and this week (go figure!) we're studying His sovereignty. How true...if I believe God is in complete control and the final authority, I have got to submit to what He is doing in the world,...and even more...in my life.
One of the ways I believe God is deepening me and challenging me is in prayer. He wants to hear my heart. He knows it already, but He wants to hear it. In fact, He tells me to come. Along with that thought, is the truth that Jesus is praying for me. He is with me, and He knows I need connection...He is working to help me have that. Gotta love that!